Thursday, December 31, 2009

signs.

another year gone, another year older,
and the way i'm headed, none the wiser.

maybe today, or sometime soon, i will write done all the stupid things I've done in the past, and draw a story board. it will be called, "the story board: to hell and back"
but for now, im happy just sitting here, sipping at my coffee filled cactus cup, and "wondering whether to have burger or chips"-QUOTE THE STREETS, "contemplating suicide"- QUOTE NICK CAVE. but really i contemplate whether i should take up Italian or Spanish.
ciao.





Wednesday, December 30, 2009

RIP my precious

do you remember the days where nothing mattered
&you were free to do what ever your heart desired

confusion was a thing of the future
&frustration was unheard of.

romance was kept alive with hand written love letters
and now we are left with text messages saying "ur a qti. will u go out wit mi!?!?!?!"

and now, my mind is left frazzled and worst to wears every day.


PHOTOGRAPHY BY THE ONE AND ONLY.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

black and white radio.

today, i assigned myself a little photography project so that my brain could run wild, and i could get out of the house.
i clearly have a soft spot for black and white photography.

tomorrow will be spent eating way too much berry coated crepes, coffee stops, and hectic tram rides.




















Friday, December 25, 2009

merry boxing-up day.

my imaginary wish list consists of the following photos.
but sadly, i guess they will just have to wait till next year.

MERRY BOXING DAY









Wednesday, December 23, 2009

spots.

i bring to you, the happiness, and only on going joy in my life.
in other ways, the wonders of the colours on my pages.









Monday, December 21, 2009

arm and hands etc.

i would just like to point out how much of a rut i'm in right now.
my mind is in a subconscious state of confusion, hate and complete frustration.
i'm not liking this ride one little bit.

however, my slr takes the pressure off my play dough like brain.









Saturday, December 19, 2009

seven things i hate about you.

i should be pointing out that the day is bright and cheerful, and the rabbits are frolicking in the fields, but sadly i feel like utter crap at the moment. so all the niceness just passes by like a tumbleweed in a 1950's western movie.

so to somewhat raise my spirits, here is a list of seven things, that may or may not make me feel the slightest bit better.

seven is the lucky number

1)today i walked into work and there was a homemade pudding dangling from a bookshelf with my name on it. thank you darling michelle.

2)my dream job is to be a photographer and own my own studio where i can paint and drink cocktails all day long. melbourne or new york. still deciding.

3)i enjoy getting lost in big cities. at the end of the day, you are bound to find your way back home.

4)i was vegan for a month this year. now i can only drink a cup of milk a day. considering i would generally drink 3 or 4 before i started the horrid thing.

5)i tend to start books, but never finish them. its a bad habit i know.

6)these holidays, i was going to learn how to drive my beetle. but unfortunately i have done something terrible to my knee. so that basically shattered my dreams. tear tear.

7) one thing that makes me immensely happy is when a stranger takes the time to actually have a decent, known weird, conversation with you. oh the stories i hear.


i miss this.

Friday, December 18, 2009

flick-tard.

i decided to create my own flickr site.
i had one a while back, but i neglected it, and forgot all details needed to actually access the photos.
my new site is called beervsman.
i'm still trying to get the nack of it, so hang tight and i will have it up and running very soon.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/45647469@N05/
if that doesn't work, then let me know.

confused.

sentences, they all have meaning.
you just need the time to decipher them.
right down to the core.





Wednesday, December 16, 2009

what was once old, is new again.

I'm currently lost in the computer screens bright white lights. whilst i stare at the screen like a complete dimwit, i can see all these horrid little bugs.
i do believe they are getting somewhat high on the hypnotic lights. because all i can hear are these tiny, squeaky voices saying "yeah man" and " I'm totally trippin balls".
i do believe whilst i open my mouth to scream at my brothers horrendous singing attempts, i bug has flown in, and laid to rest on my tongue.
how odd.
the weather out side on the other hand is slowly cooling down, which is a positive. this means my knee cant get much more swollen.
to add to this knee talk, i really do have an urge to stab a knitting needle, right at the heart of the irritation. but the inner me (my brain) , is holding me back.
Q: the point of this post?
A: there is none. I'm just really incredibly bored.

i really do need some happiness in my life right now.






photography by myself (Camilla Lousia Nicholls)

Monday, December 14, 2009

hazy dayz

boredom has hit.
i have only spent two miserable days sitting on my backside, but my god its horrible.
today was spent having xrays, lunch dates with the mother, and falling over whilst crossing the road.
i did manage on whip up two quick water coloured creatures.
i hope you enjoy.











Sunday, December 13, 2009

karma's a bitch

i do not wish to relive my hell on earth weekend, but i need pity.

friday started off normal as ever. apart from the 6:00am wake up call, but i mustn't complain.
i arrived with much anticipation and determination. anticipation as to what the weekend would hold, and a hell of a lot of determination to help walk many hills and slants with a hell of a lot of luggage. stupid me, and needing to eat this thing called food.
after finding a considerably good camping site, the tents went up.
not so much with ease, but with as much effort as it would take to construct the worlds largest sand castle.
NOTE FOR THE FUTURE: boys do struggle with getting their head around the whole, peg goes in ground not left on ground to melt away.
the next 7 hours were spent moping around contemplating whether to start the celebrations early or play uno.
oh mercy set off the night, followed by akron/family and their wilderness like beards.
i was fairly beaten up at this point. so this would explain why i missed out on sia. i do recall listening to eacho and the bunny men in a car that smelt if moulding beer?
patrick wolf. with the combination of his flamboyant on stage antics, and his highly eccentric clothing decision, clearly proved that he is an amazingly talented musician.

to my knowledge, i was dragged away from the depths of the crowd and taken for a long and tedious stroll around the camp sites.
to this day, i have no recollection as to why this happened. but free drinks never go astray.
after this pointless, maybe 2 hour walk, i found myself at the outskirts of the stage, watching yacht, go wild. dam you beautiful people.

second day was the beginning of hell on earth if you must call it that.
I've some what tried to block this horrid day out of my mind, so my memory is slightly hazy, so bare with me.
a lovely man insisted on buying crepes for breakfast, but my money was stolen. (clearly the beginning of the end).
kid sam was a breath of fresh, along with thee oh sees.
my head was pounding like a drum, so i went to lay down on the lush green grass with my dear friends.
the camp site was a massive dump. it was if a group of trash bag 13 year old hooligans ate to much red cordial and went ape shit. so, i didn't particularly want to enter even the outskirts of that hell hole. so i stayed clear for a couple of hours.

pharoahe monch went right off. all i could see was every ones muddy hands punching the sky. "get the fuck up" pretty much summed up that event. in a nut shell.
i quick brake at camp revamped my need for more and more music. the music i was hearing was a certain person singing about skating. entertaining indeed.

at this point in time, i had $20 stolen, along with my drinks, and my glasses had me trashed and broken.
i have always wanted to see paul kelly, and my dream came true.
this was followed by some psych-pop brought to you by animal collective. if i were to peer up into the nights sky, i could see such magical colours from the stage, and lovely tiny fairy lights from surrounding trees. oh the bliss of it all.

this is the section of the night i wish to forget.
because I'm cocky, and i believe i can concur anything i set my mind upon, i decided to storm threw the crowd instead of doing the sensible thing and walk around.
along the way, i crashed into some dimwits esky. sounds like a pretty un-dangerous thing, but my leg started to throb and my mind was going at full pace.
the next thing i know, I'm sitting upright in a white room, balling my eyes out.
my mind was mended with a dinosaur band aid and a hot milo.
but i felt batted and broken, and horrid because my family had to drive 45minutes to my rescue.
I'm some what glad they just laughed in my face, but sad because of their lack of pity.

and that my friends, was the weekend that was Meredith.
maybe next time, i should learn to be less cocky and a little more realistic.
but on the plus side, i wasn't there to clean on the rancid camp site and tents.

i now sit here, with my knee swollen like a balloon, sitting upon a desk draw.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

merry meredith.

I'll be home soon.
I'm venturing to the depths of the meredith music festival.
hopefully i'll come home with a handful of decent photos, and a shit load of horrid drunken photos.
keep on the look out.


don't forget this face.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

art as an emotion

"those who delve inward and use emotional experiences as the raw material for their creative output are more likely to experience the double-edged sword of creative activity"
Arnold Ludwig, you clearly understand how ones emotional mind penetrates ones work, and life at that.

Edvard Munch


the scream


George Grosz


Suicide 1916


Vincent Van Gogh


old man in sorrow

Monday, December 7, 2009

lines, colour, and pencil.

more drawings from yours truly.
they are clearly not finished.
....patience is needed, or are you all stubborn?













alas, colour comes to life.