another year gone, another year older,
and the way i'm headed, none the wiser.
maybe today, or sometime soon, i will write done all the stupid things I've done in the past, and draw a story board. it will be called, "the story board: to hell and back"
but for now, im happy just sitting here, sipping at my coffee filled cactus cup, and "wondering whether to have burger or chips"-QUOTE THE STREETS, "contemplating suicide"- QUOTE NICK CAVE. but really i contemplate whether i should take up Italian or Spanish.
ciao.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
RIP my precious
do you remember the days where nothing mattered
&you were free to do what ever your heart desired
confusion was a thing of the future
&frustration was unheard of.
romance was kept alive with hand written love letters
and now we are left with text messages saying "ur a qti. will u go out wit mi!?!?!?!"
and now, my mind is left frazzled and worst to wears every day.
PHOTOGRAPHY BY THE ONE AND ONLY.
&you were free to do what ever your heart desired
confusion was a thing of the future
&frustration was unheard of.
romance was kept alive with hand written love letters
and now we are left with text messages saying "ur a qti. will u go out wit mi!?!?!?!"
and now, my mind is left frazzled and worst to wears every day.
PHOTOGRAPHY BY THE ONE AND ONLY.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
black and white radio.
Friday, December 25, 2009
merry boxing-up day.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
spots.
Monday, December 21, 2009
arm and hands etc.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
seven things i hate about you.
i should be pointing out that the day is bright and cheerful, and the rabbits are frolicking in the fields, but sadly i feel like utter crap at the moment. so all the niceness just passes by like a tumbleweed in a 1950's western movie.
so to somewhat raise my spirits, here is a list of seven things, that may or may not make me feel the slightest bit better.
seven is the lucky number
1)today i walked into work and there was a homemade pudding dangling from a bookshelf with my name on it. thank you darling michelle.
2)my dream job is to be a photographer and own my own studio where i can paint and drink cocktails all day long. melbourne or new york. still deciding.
3)i enjoy getting lost in big cities. at the end of the day, you are bound to find your way back home.
4)i was vegan for a month this year. now i can only drink a cup of milk a day. considering i would generally drink 3 or 4 before i started the horrid thing.
5)i tend to start books, but never finish them. its a bad habit i know.
6)these holidays, i was going to learn how to drive my beetle. but unfortunately i have done something terrible to my knee. so that basically shattered my dreams. tear tear.
7) one thing that makes me immensely happy is when a stranger takes the time to actually have a decent, known weird, conversation with you. oh the stories i hear.
i miss this.
so to somewhat raise my spirits, here is a list of seven things, that may or may not make me feel the slightest bit better.
seven is the lucky number
1)today i walked into work and there was a homemade pudding dangling from a bookshelf with my name on it. thank you darling michelle.
2)my dream job is to be a photographer and own my own studio where i can paint and drink cocktails all day long. melbourne or new york. still deciding.
3)i enjoy getting lost in big cities. at the end of the day, you are bound to find your way back home.
4)i was vegan for a month this year. now i can only drink a cup of milk a day. considering i would generally drink 3 or 4 before i started the horrid thing.
5)i tend to start books, but never finish them. its a bad habit i know.
6)these holidays, i was going to learn how to drive my beetle. but unfortunately i have done something terrible to my knee. so that basically shattered my dreams. tear tear.
7) one thing that makes me immensely happy is when a stranger takes the time to actually have a decent, known weird, conversation with you. oh the stories i hear.
i miss this.
Friday, December 18, 2009
flick-tard.
i decided to create my own flickr site.
i had one a while back, but i neglected it, and forgot all details needed to actually access the photos.
my new site is called beervsman.
i'm still trying to get the nack of it, so hang tight and i will have it up and running very soon.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/45647469@N05/
if that doesn't work, then let me know.
i had one a while back, but i neglected it, and forgot all details needed to actually access the photos.
my new site is called beervsman.
i'm still trying to get the nack of it, so hang tight and i will have it up and running very soon.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/45647469@N05/
if that doesn't work, then let me know.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
what was once old, is new again.
I'm currently lost in the computer screens bright white lights. whilst i stare at the screen like a complete dimwit, i can see all these horrid little bugs.
i do believe they are getting somewhat high on the hypnotic lights. because all i can hear are these tiny, squeaky voices saying "yeah man" and " I'm totally trippin balls".
i do believe whilst i open my mouth to scream at my brothers horrendous singing attempts, i bug has flown in, and laid to rest on my tongue.
how odd.
the weather out side on the other hand is slowly cooling down, which is a positive. this means my knee cant get much more swollen.
to add to this knee talk, i really do have an urge to stab a knitting needle, right at the heart of the irritation. but the inner me (my brain) , is holding me back.
Q: the point of this post?
A: there is none. I'm just really incredibly bored.
i really do need some happiness in my life right now.
photography by myself (Camilla Lousia Nicholls)
i do believe they are getting somewhat high on the hypnotic lights. because all i can hear are these tiny, squeaky voices saying "yeah man" and " I'm totally trippin balls".
i do believe whilst i open my mouth to scream at my brothers horrendous singing attempts, i bug has flown in, and laid to rest on my tongue.
how odd.
the weather out side on the other hand is slowly cooling down, which is a positive. this means my knee cant get much more swollen.
to add to this knee talk, i really do have an urge to stab a knitting needle, right at the heart of the irritation. but the inner me (my brain) , is holding me back.
Q: the point of this post?
A: there is none. I'm just really incredibly bored.
i really do need some happiness in my life right now.
photography by myself (Camilla Lousia Nicholls)
Monday, December 14, 2009
hazy dayz
Sunday, December 13, 2009
karma's a bitch
i do not wish to relive my hell on earth weekend, but i need pity.
friday started off normal as ever. apart from the 6:00am wake up call, but i mustn't complain.
i arrived with much anticipation and determination. anticipation as to what the weekend would hold, and a hell of a lot of determination to help walk many hills and slants with a hell of a lot of luggage. stupid me, and needing to eat this thing called food.
after finding a considerably good camping site, the tents went up.
not so much with ease, but with as much effort as it would take to construct the worlds largest sand castle.
NOTE FOR THE FUTURE: boys do struggle with getting their head around the whole, peg goes in ground not left on ground to melt away.
the next 7 hours were spent moping around contemplating whether to start the celebrations early or play uno.
oh mercy set off the night, followed by akron/family and their wilderness like beards.
i was fairly beaten up at this point. so this would explain why i missed out on sia. i do recall listening to eacho and the bunny men in a car that smelt if moulding beer?
patrick wolf. with the combination of his flamboyant on stage antics, and his highly eccentric clothing decision, clearly proved that he is an amazingly talented musician.
to my knowledge, i was dragged away from the depths of the crowd and taken for a long and tedious stroll around the camp sites.
to this day, i have no recollection as to why this happened. but free drinks never go astray.
after this pointless, maybe 2 hour walk, i found myself at the outskirts of the stage, watching yacht, go wild. dam you beautiful people.
second day was the beginning of hell on earth if you must call it that.
I've some what tried to block this horrid day out of my mind, so my memory is slightly hazy, so bare with me.
a lovely man insisted on buying crepes for breakfast, but my money was stolen. (clearly the beginning of the end).
kid sam was a breath of fresh, along with thee oh sees.
my head was pounding like a drum, so i went to lay down on the lush green grass with my dear friends.
the camp site was a massive dump. it was if a group of trash bag 13 year old hooligans ate to much red cordial and went ape shit. so, i didn't particularly want to enter even the outskirts of that hell hole. so i stayed clear for a couple of hours.
pharoahe monch went right off. all i could see was every ones muddy hands punching the sky. "get the fuck up" pretty much summed up that event. in a nut shell.
i quick brake at camp revamped my need for more and more music. the music i was hearing was a certain person singing about skating. entertaining indeed.
at this point in time, i had $20 stolen, along with my drinks, and my glasses had me trashed and broken.
i have always wanted to see paul kelly, and my dream came true.
this was followed by some psych-pop brought to you by animal collective. if i were to peer up into the nights sky, i could see such magical colours from the stage, and lovely tiny fairy lights from surrounding trees. oh the bliss of it all.
this is the section of the night i wish to forget.
because I'm cocky, and i believe i can concur anything i set my mind upon, i decided to storm threw the crowd instead of doing the sensible thing and walk around.
along the way, i crashed into some dimwits esky. sounds like a pretty un-dangerous thing, but my leg started to throb and my mind was going at full pace.
the next thing i know, I'm sitting upright in a white room, balling my eyes out.
my mind was mended with a dinosaur band aid and a hot milo.
but i felt batted and broken, and horrid because my family had to drive 45minutes to my rescue.
I'm some what glad they just laughed in my face, but sad because of their lack of pity.
and that my friends, was the weekend that was Meredith.
maybe next time, i should learn to be less cocky and a little more realistic.
but on the plus side, i wasn't there to clean on the rancid camp site and tents.
i now sit here, with my knee swollen like a balloon, sitting upon a desk draw.
friday started off normal as ever. apart from the 6:00am wake up call, but i mustn't complain.
i arrived with much anticipation and determination. anticipation as to what the weekend would hold, and a hell of a lot of determination to help walk many hills and slants with a hell of a lot of luggage. stupid me, and needing to eat this thing called food.
after finding a considerably good camping site, the tents went up.
not so much with ease, but with as much effort as it would take to construct the worlds largest sand castle.
NOTE FOR THE FUTURE: boys do struggle with getting their head around the whole, peg goes in ground not left on ground to melt away.
the next 7 hours were spent moping around contemplating whether to start the celebrations early or play uno.
oh mercy set off the night, followed by akron/family and their wilderness like beards.
i was fairly beaten up at this point. so this would explain why i missed out on sia. i do recall listening to eacho and the bunny men in a car that smelt if moulding beer?
patrick wolf. with the combination of his flamboyant on stage antics, and his highly eccentric clothing decision, clearly proved that he is an amazingly talented musician.
to my knowledge, i was dragged away from the depths of the crowd and taken for a long and tedious stroll around the camp sites.
to this day, i have no recollection as to why this happened. but free drinks never go astray.
after this pointless, maybe 2 hour walk, i found myself at the outskirts of the stage, watching yacht, go wild. dam you beautiful people.
second day was the beginning of hell on earth if you must call it that.
I've some what tried to block this horrid day out of my mind, so my memory is slightly hazy, so bare with me.
a lovely man insisted on buying crepes for breakfast, but my money was stolen. (clearly the beginning of the end).
kid sam was a breath of fresh, along with thee oh sees.
my head was pounding like a drum, so i went to lay down on the lush green grass with my dear friends.
the camp site was a massive dump. it was if a group of trash bag 13 year old hooligans ate to much red cordial and went ape shit. so, i didn't particularly want to enter even the outskirts of that hell hole. so i stayed clear for a couple of hours.
pharoahe monch went right off. all i could see was every ones muddy hands punching the sky. "get the fuck up" pretty much summed up that event. in a nut shell.
i quick brake at camp revamped my need for more and more music. the music i was hearing was a certain person singing about skating. entertaining indeed.
at this point in time, i had $20 stolen, along with my drinks, and my glasses had me trashed and broken.
i have always wanted to see paul kelly, and my dream came true.
this was followed by some psych-pop brought to you by animal collective. if i were to peer up into the nights sky, i could see such magical colours from the stage, and lovely tiny fairy lights from surrounding trees. oh the bliss of it all.
this is the section of the night i wish to forget.
because I'm cocky, and i believe i can concur anything i set my mind upon, i decided to storm threw the crowd instead of doing the sensible thing and walk around.
along the way, i crashed into some dimwits esky. sounds like a pretty un-dangerous thing, but my leg started to throb and my mind was going at full pace.
the next thing i know, I'm sitting upright in a white room, balling my eyes out.
my mind was mended with a dinosaur band aid and a hot milo.
but i felt batted and broken, and horrid because my family had to drive 45minutes to my rescue.
I'm some what glad they just laughed in my face, but sad because of their lack of pity.
and that my friends, was the weekend that was Meredith.
maybe next time, i should learn to be less cocky and a little more realistic.
but on the plus side, i wasn't there to clean on the rancid camp site and tents.
i now sit here, with my knee swollen like a balloon, sitting upon a desk draw.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
merry meredith.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
art as an emotion
"those who delve inward and use emotional experiences as the raw material for their creative output are more likely to experience the double-edged sword of creative activity"
Arnold Ludwig, you clearly understand how ones emotional mind penetrates ones work, and life at that.
Edvard Munch
the scream
George Grosz
Suicide 1916
Vincent Van Gogh
old man in sorrow
Arnold Ludwig, you clearly understand how ones emotional mind penetrates ones work, and life at that.
Edvard Munch
the scream
George Grosz
Suicide 1916
Vincent Van Gogh
old man in sorrow
Monday, December 7, 2009
lines, colour, and pencil.
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